Been Gone Too Long...

Wow FIVE years since I posted? LOTS happened. Go figure. I am on a spiritual journey. Now before you say oh, she became some preachy, fanatical, bizarre freak, let me assure you, I most certainly am NOT preachy. Or fanatical. Not even a freak no matter what you've heard. Just kidding!

I will post more often, here and in my other blogs.


I just felt compelled to reach out. Normally I am the one trying to help anyone, but tonight, I am the one asking. I would welcome prayers for positive protection, to become the higher self I am supposed to be. No, not some priestess or god, or anything like that. Higher in self, in awareness of spirituality, in complete love and acceptance with no trace of anger, or worry, or any other emotion that serves us no good purpose of evolving spiritually to the plane that encompasses and IS love in total.

Thanks for 'listening' everyone.
Love and Light.

Absense Makes The Heart....Lonely

The lil twins, Dare and Gabe, are sick, my oldest, Wy, is off and on sick, the love of my life is stuck 125 miles away, and now we won't even be able to communicate much possibly, for 4 out of 7 days, in the week. I KNOW it's not permanent, but boy, does it get rough.

First, I just hate when my kids are sick...especially when they are too little to understand.

Second, yes, I know this situation is not forever with him, but when your love is also your best friend, well....you 'need' him! I know all about absense making the heart fonder, and at times yes, you appreciate the time more when you don't get that time constantly....but it also makes your heart so lonely without word for days from the person you love. Sometimes I call his cel phone just to hear his message on voicemail, just to hear his voice. I know...I'm pathetic.

I think of those overseas, or away from loved ones, REALLY away, for long periods, and I think I'm such a baby, whining about a short term situation. But it still aches.

Daryl and Gabriel turned a year old last month, and are now walking. Yes, I cannot believe it myself! Walking! Next comes full on talking. We spend 18 months wishing our babies would walk and talk, then 18 years saying shut up, and sit down! Go figure.

Drama, Drama, Drama All Around........

Too much going on, too much drama.

I had a hip replacement on May 7th, though upon returning home from hospital, could not care for my babies while using a walker. I hated doing it, but had to place them with Casas De Los Ninos on a volunteer, temporary basis...this Thursday will be 2 weeks and I'm bringing them home!!

Finances are tight as usual and I can only pray and put it in God's hands while looking for ways to keep afloat.

One of my best friends was rushed to hospital Sunday night and as I type, he is undergoing another angiogram. I've been praying they can fix whatever the issues are with the balloons and stents, and he does not have to undergo bypass surgery. I couldn't even sleep til 4am last night/this morning. This friend is very, very dear to me and I care about him immensely.

The twins have both gotten their first and second teeth while I've been recovering from my surgery...it just figures.

Well, I will try to be more current more often, but need to get going right now.....

Rough Times........

I have to admit that raising 2 babies while single with a 10 yr old is hard...made harder by the hip and foot issues. Some days I just want to either cry or crawl under a rock and be left alone for awhile. Today the allergies/sinuses are making themselves known...and now babies are fussing/whining so I guess I don't have the time I thought I'd have to make an entry. Maybe later tonight if I don't pass out from exhaustion.

Here And Now....

What's going on in our lives right now? Well, let's see.....

In the beginning of May I go in for a total hip replacement of the left hip. Apparently it's been deteriorating for some time, but the pregnancy of the twins pretty much finished it off....there's no cartilidge at all there. Gee...no wonder it hurts so dang much! After the summer I need to get the foot that was crushed in the Jan '05 auto accident, re-worked on...more surgery to finish fixing the rest of the foot. Wheeeee

Anyway, in between my two surgeries, Daryl needs surgery.It's apparently something that is not uncommon...while one of his testicles was descending, it twisted and now, the blood suppy being cut off, it has died and needs to be removed. I'm told it's not a dangerous or complicated or major surgery, but he is my baby and it is to me!

Yesterday was a very rough day pain-wise for me, but a dear friend came to the rescue and I'm very grateful for that...today is a better day. It looks like rain and I suppose that is where my headache today is coming from..either that or allergies/sinuses. Such complaining, huh???!!

While the babies are napping I'm thinking it's a good time for me to lie down too....so, until next time....

Judi

My Boys and Me

To start with, here is a composite photo I made using Paintshop Pro 8 program. I cut/pasted each family member out of 4 individual photos, then arranged them on a backdrop I like ( I took that photo of a sunset, by the way) and created this family portrait.

Daryl Dean, Wyatt George, Gabriel Gene, me (Judi)

Wyatt is 10, and the twins are 6 months old right now. I'm 43.

Salutations

Well, here's my blog. My name is Judi, and I live in Tucson, Arizona. I have a 10 yr old son, and 5 month old twin sons. We also have many cats, gerbils, hampsters, and aquariums. It's like a zoo here.

I'll be doing alot of picture posting of things in my life: cats, kids, nature, insanity...oh wait...you can't photograph insanity. My mistake. Anyway, thanks for reading/viewing.

Enjoy

Judi